Tuesday, September 15, 2009

If looks cud kill....then i must b writing this from hell...

Is it virtually possible to send out hate vibes to people? i have never hated anyone in my life ... i have had angers .. i have hated peoples specific characteristics.. i ve shouted and threatened to kill ppl too in moments of anger... i dislike some ppl at first site.. i dislike some ppl even b4 i meet them .. i ve been jealous.. i ve envied...i ve spited...i ve cursed...but i have never hated anyone in this last 26 years per se, i cant think of one person ...neither can i think of anyone who has hated me so much... again there are ppl who think m arrogant, m stupid, m selfish, m heartless, m an asshole... etc etc.. but jus plainly hate me for who i am? mayb someone does and i never knew it but it has never bothered me as much.. cos noone has ever meant that much to me in life to be affected by their vibes over me ... i am preacher of love and giving and wud foolishly give even if u keep on takin.. no m not proud of it .. i let ppl walk all over me cos of it .. it is my disease!

But NOW i feel hated... i feel hate vibes all around me.. don get me wrong.. its not bout family or friends they are all very supportive and infact takin all the shit i am givin them ...but there is hate and evil vibes all around me and i can feel it haunting me .. eating me alive...like a death machine...giving me brain shivers....am i paranoid...or am i really being hated so much? have u ever felt it? is it true? a vibe that can kill u .. looks that can give u a nervous breakdown...

16 comments:

Nautankey said...

>:D< ..wear a bullet proof vest :) I think the lines in ur post have the solution why bothered abt hate when you have so many people who are around to love you.

Enigma said...

humm, y do u feel so...well ya there r hate vibes at times...but as long as the people ur care abt dont hate u its ok

An Open Book said...

I've felt that at one of the places i used 2 wrk in. I used 2 dread going 2 wrk and actually used 2 cry every single day before roshan dropped me off...ITS NOT A GREAT FEELING

Shades of Grey said...

I am just trying to figure out who the hell is doing this to you. We shoot them...problem solved. :D

the blogger formerly known as sansmerci said...

nauty
>:D< ... i ll reply to u bout this after few months.. if u kno wat i mean :)

kel
sometimes its a lot more complicated than how u put it

the blogger formerly known as sansmerci said...

nish

trust me, its a freakin nauseating feelin to even wake up these days

jane
thanks .... muah :) but i don wish to.. i only wish i cud send bak love vibes to attack them bak .. like in those graphics they used to show in ramayana/mahabharata serials in DD (decades bak wen we were kids!)

Praveen said...

Its the season...right when the festive spirit starts to kick in, the bitchiness and the cold stares etc... start coming in.

shrug them off... more u spend time thinking abt it, the more it will draw you in :)

not worth the time brooding over it :)

Cheer up!

the blogger formerly known as sansmerci said...

trust me

am tryin ...

SR said...

Hey swarna

If you feel that way maybe some around you does hate your guts! It has happened to me before and it turned out someone right next to me was the culprit in bringing a lot of pain into my life!

Just ignore it - look at it this way - they must be so mean else you can't really feel those vibes! these people are so nasty that these vibes seem to trickle off then! Just feel sorry for them.. great to see u blogging again!

the blogger formerly known as sansmerci said...

i so badly want to agree with u SR ... i ve not known anyone who has hated me so much that this is the first time i can atcually feel such vibes and its hittin my head so badly tht i cnt breathe sometimes...

either the person is so powerful or the hate for me is so strong :)

or m jus plain weak?

Maddie said...

Hey Swarna!!!

i have been following your blog for some time... always percieved you to be a daring and bold person from your writing...

like every one even i am going through some thing like this probably worse than in your case... feel good, you have good friends and family behind you...
with all opitimism, i wish you the best... get well soon...

Renu said...

Hey Swarna when there are so many people who love you why give someone the right to makye you unhappy..and if you dont take the vibes, they will go back to him/her.

Such people dont deserve to be thought of, just ignore them and carry on with your life, think that they dont exist for u.

Wish you all the best and get well soon !

the blogger formerly known as sansmerci said...

thanks renu

i am not able to judge so easily... jus cos someone doesnt like me... doesnt mean they are bad...they jus don like ME! they cud b an angel to others who are likeable.. rite?

and i dono y i try n go outa my way to please ppl ... how can someone not like me and i be not bothered bout it.. leave alone not like.. hate is the rite word i shud use i suppose!

i wonder where i go rong or wat i shud do to fix it ...

the blogger formerly known as sansmerci said...

thanks a lot Maddiee... for all ur wishes ..

i come across as a strong person??? m sure u need to read a lot of my older blog posts to know wat the epitome of weakness and depth of depression is!? :)

Yes!i am a BOLD writer... there is nothin else BOLD bout me as far as i know...

Renu said...

I dont know what is exact thing, but sometimes some people dont like us and its not our fault, as long as you dont do anywrong why worry what others think of you.
if its troubling you so much then go to that person and ask why?

or come to my place we will have a chat to make you feel better.

Maddie said...

arre yaar... you say you are not bold... well your post on fair sex certainly made me a lesser smaller Chauvinist...
other than family members, you aslo have the good gestures of ur well wishers and friends from this blogworld, you will certainly overcome depression...

Cheers!
madu:)