Friday, February 03, 2012

If this aint love, then what is???

I havent been feeling very well lately. Seems like am growing another heart inside of me, the doc says. 

The making of my very own sweetheart, my very own piece of art.
Two hearts inside one body, literally. If this aint love, then what is?

I dreamt of a beautiful sugarcake yesterday. So pretty and charming, havent seen anything as lovable and cute in this lifetime. I felt in my heart what you call 'pure joy'... like an atheist who just felt the presence of God and had a revelation, like a person who was fearing death all their life just kept their first step in heaven.... yes there was smoke all over.. there was tears of rainlets... yes m too dramatic.. and loving it... it was like the softest flower.. it felt like a cotton ball.. it was like surreal..that it almost felt like a dream... it smelt like baking butter and it was lying next to me in my bed closer than my own eyes... all mine...that i almost wondered if i deserve it....as typically i would... (he/she has been replaced with 'it' for political reasons :P) 

And in a couple of days I will hear the beating of the little heart inside of me, just thinking of which the pace of mine is racing already. I hope i can hear it clearly, amidst the loud noise my heartbeats would be making. I hope i can record it in my mind forever and play it back whenever i feel low ever again.....

There was always something missing in my life ... y'all probably heard it million times.. my ever-so-sad stories.. i have always missed the romance how much ever abundance i get it in .. greed, ppl have for money.. i have for love.. the more i have the more i want... call it a hollywood romm-comm overdose i definitely have had more than a fair share of my u-don-make-me-feel-like-the-most-beautiful-woman-u-met-so-i-don-feel-special fights... n still won get enough.. but now.. i already feel it .. probably already confident that this stage in life that am entering into is going to be my best.. and most complete .. as there is nothin missin in it already... its filled with love and passion n finally i myself feel am getting more than enough.. i guess this sugarcake inside is my lucky charm.. n has already taught me a lesson about love. No its definitely not what i was missing all these days.. it is actually wat i was missing to note all these days... as much as i wud hate to accept it...

...this lil baking butter has the best dad in the world no doubt about it, so the mom now has tough competition to keep up to!!

Bring it on baby!



18 comments:

Nithya Sriram said...

such a beautiful post straight from your heart

Sugar said...

many many congratulations :) the next nine months wont even prepare you for the abundant joy that will come at the end of it :)

cvs said...

super mom and dad getting ready.....
my special >:D<.....

the blogger formerly known as sansmerci said...

thanks nits :D

thanks sugar :)

the blogger formerly known as sansmerci said...

amma

>:D<

Anonymous said...

Wow!!! Never read such a beautiful piece like this in ages now. Am so happy for you swar...truly! Someday your baby is gonna read it and going to be soooo proud of you, and so happy! Beautiful, thats the word for this! May you enjoy the best of your pregnancy period! Love you lots >:D<

Sne

the blogger formerly known as sansmerci said...

thanks sne :) i hope! n not think how (her/his)mom is sucha senti fool ;;; lol!

Anonymous said...

Beautiful! :)

Arvind

the blogger formerly known as sansmerci said...

danke aa

the blogger formerly known as sansmerci said...

oh huggy sne :) forgot!

Praveen said...

And my better half says Congrats :)

the blogger formerly known as sansmerci said...

praveen - not you eh??

say thanks to her.. :)

Praveen said...

Apparently my first comment didnt get posted at all...so here is a repeat
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Congrats :)
could have put it in a simple way. not all are super intellect like the new mom :)

the blogger formerly known as sansmerci said...

haha thanks praveen.. this is the most direct way i have said it since i knew it :)

Jayashree said...

Congratulations, Swarna.....

CynicalOxymoron™ said...

Congrats Swarna!!! SO..... Bun in the oven for the Baraths. Huh? Lol... Have lovely pregnancy, hope you enjoy every moment.

the blogger formerly known as sansmerci said...

thanks u gals

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