no words to describe . i was on top of the world .. felt the entire world wished me on my bday this time .. felt like a celeb .. thanks to orkut for bringing so many ppl into (and back into?) my life .. but more than that i shud say thanks to my new friends at office .. somehow i feel the word 'new' din fit in here! Mayb this is wat i always wanted .. wat more can i ask for .. a writing job, damn cool boss, friendly team ...n most of all my FRIENDS at work who made me feel 'afterall lifes worth living' atleast for a day .. trust me..knowin me .. thts a very tough job to bring me to tht state of mind (by the time i post this blog i kno i ll bak to my boring depressed self).. it was a real awesome surprise ... love u all muahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Sunday, March 25, 2007
best Bday of my life
Thursday, March 22, 2007
Beyond the yellow line ..
I am so bored of writing what I am told to write about and almost being fed the words to write. This is one place I can write what I want to, with no edits or QC. Anyways this is something goin on in my head for a long time I donno if it wud of interest to neone. Din kno how to put it in words tho exactly. It was my first team dinner n I was asked wat I think about each person in my team, well I obv din have an answer. But yea as usual made me think of something that wouldn’t provide an answer to their question. Y do ppl judge? rather how do ppl judge? I realized I don judge ppl at first site or even after sometime n I dono if it’s a good trait or a bad one. Do u need to have opinion about everythin n everyone? Well yea maybe but y r adjectives being used so losely Yea u can call someone beautiful at first site I can agree on that. Judging n stereotyping r two things I can neither stand nor understand. Sometimes ppl tell me ‘ur this kinda gal n how come u do that’ huh wat??? I am no kinda gal.. I am wat I am y cant I b jus ‘me’ n not categorized into a group that thinks n acts a certain way. Why is there a necessity to stamp a person rather brand them with an adjective, good or bad, still it seems dumb to me. one person is not like another .. 2 ppl cant b alike .. everyone knows that .. then y? Individuals brought up in similar lifestyle mite have similair ideas or tastes since they can match wavelengths.. But ofcourse everyone is different n have different ways of thinking, if not always beyond the boundary. Cos yes we r all trained not to make mistakes not to cross the line, and when I do I belong to the stereotype called ‘ the gals who cross the line’ or whatever n I can never display traits that ‘gals who nestle inside the line’ do. I am not supposed to disagree with other gals who cross the line n I am supposed to think a certain way about certain things, have a certain lifestyle and certain attitude that ‘gals like me’ r supposed to have. Oh is it cos its easier for ppl to judge at first site? When I get to hear things like ‘I din expect this from a gal like u, I thought u were that types’ I wanna rofl wen ppl assume things by jus the looks of it n comment stuff bout me or neone else I kno personally.. the best part is wen they r so sure bout it ..everybody who is shallow nuff to judge quickly is dumb nuff to think they r the smartest judge around .. well wat can I say .. it’s too funny actually wen I think of it this way …. ppl who think outside the box are still provided with boundaries? !!!
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Friday, March 16, 2007
i was told i have been tagged
1. Were you named after anyone?
My grandmother (boo hoo)
.2. Do you wish on stars?
I wish for stars [:P]
3. When did you last cry?
When I was asked the first question
4. Do you like your handwriting?
NOOOOOOOOOOO
5. What is your favorite meat?
Men
6. What is your most embarrassing CD on your shelf?
I don keep my CDs on the shelf
7. If you were another person, would YOU be friends with you?
I will give it a try ..
8.Are you a daredevil?
Devil? Yea
9. How do you release anger?
awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
10. Where is your second home?
Beach
.11. Do you trust others easily?
NOPE!
12. What was your favorite toy as a child?
Dildo muhahahahaha ... [;)]
13. What class in school/college do you think is totally useless?
Classes were good .. teachers were useless
14. Do you use sarcasm a lot?
I don understand my own comments sometimes
15. Have you ever been in a mosh pit?
Wat????
16.What do you look for in a guy/gal?
Guy/gal? Doesn’t matter [:D]
.17. Would you bungee jump?
I wudnt even watch anyone bungee jump
18. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?
If I had tied them in the first place
19.what's your favourite ice cream?
French vanilla butterscotch
.20. What are your favourite colors?
Blue
21. What are your least favourite things?
Me
22. How many people do you have a crush on right now?
Lemme c … hmmhmm … damn I just have 10 fingers
.23. Who do you miss most right now?
Someone who is least bothered about it
.24. What are you listening to right now?
My inner voice hehe
.25. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be?
The fav color of the kid whose using me
26. What is the weather like right now?
Air is conditioned here ... So no idea
.27. Last person you talked to on the phone?
To someone who is not my fav person today
28. The "first" thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Charm
29. Do you like the person who sent you this?
Yes ofcourse [;)]
30. How are you today?
My life sucks – m too bored – lotsa energy goin wasted – restless – itchin to do something – filling this! – yea my life sucks!
.31. Favourite non alcoholic drink?
Non-alcoholic n favourite don’t go together
32. Favourite alcoholic drink?
Be wat u wanna b takin things the way they come ..
Nothing is as nice as fine in paradise than sippin on ..
33. Natural hair colour?
Forgot
34. Eye colour?
Dark brown
35. Wear contacts?
How does that interest u?
36. Siblings?
Not lucky nuff to say no
37. Favourite month?
March
38.Favourite food?
Indian Indo-Chinese Mexican actually anything goes except Japanese
39. Favourite day of the year?
March 20 of course
40. Have you ever been too shy to ask someone out?
NEVER!
41. Scary movies or happy endings?
Whatever
42. Summer or winter?
Spring
43. Holi or Diwali?
Diwali definitely
44. Do you like your name?
This has been answered first
45. What book/magazine are you reading?
Supposed to be reading Atlas shrugged [:p]
46. What's on your mouse pad?
My hand
47. What did you watch on TV last night?
Seinfeld on dvd .. I don watch TV
48. Favourite Smell?
Baby (johnsons?)
49. Have you ever regretted breaking up with someone?
After its toooooooooooooooo f**in late
50. Most tiresome thing you’ve ever experienced/done?
I wish I cud say work but m actually sitting in office n filling this... so I guess u get the picture?
So wat’s this all about now? Do I get comments?
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Wednesday, March 14, 2007
the ME in YOU
wow! first time m posting somethin thats not written by me ... but yes its typically my kinda writing n i loved it nuff to put it on my blog .. i wish i can write so well sometime .. but i guess this shud b interestin to the kinda ppl who follow my blog.. written by someone who ll always b special to me .. claims he was possessed by me wen he wrote it .. atlast a living proof that I am not alive .. hehe anyways .......... n yea now u gota accept it .. there is an undefined oxymoron in everyone .... okok read on !!
The journey started with the loss of ma prized possession... Leavin behind my cherished past... takin the uncommon path to an unknown destiantion... millions of unanswered questions... jumping and hopping arnd the rugged path.. carin enough not to hurt my feet... stupid enough to hurt my heart... faster i hopped.. higher i went...
every heart and stone has a pattern... so did my path... sucked in by the pattern... started hoppin with my eyes closed... my feet hurts... but my hearts euphoric... my brain pleads my feets case... but my heart wins... my feet cries for help but ma heart still owns my closed eyes... paths changed... hearts scared.. and finally my brain pulls one off.... i open my eyes and realize am standing on a rock on top of a cliff...elated to see the whole world below me... was this my unknown destination?? Did my destiny overpower me? I fite to control my destiny but in vain.. I look bak and there is no trail to trace bak to where i was and there is no path ahead of me... i try to convince myself this was my destination... my imprudent heart quickly accepts... but my astute brain denies... been standin on da rock for ages now not knowing wat to do and the battle betn my heart and my head still continues... one step ahead i start an avalanche... This was not my destination.... I hiked the wrong cliff... damn i should have kept my eyes open!!!!
I WASNT DRUNK.... I WAS JUST DRUGGED!!!!
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Tuesday, March 13, 2007
The avant-garde mass
I am proud to be a part of the generation I belong to. Presuming that, as we evolve, our values are devolving, in comparison to the previous, I would say that my generation is a perfect cultural blend of the modern era. The one significant characteristic I think worth mentioning is the individuality we have and the independence that comes with it. In simple terms, we have a mind of our own. The older generations believed in following traditions blindly and would consider it a virtue to not ask reasons. Reasoning power and inquisitiveness is found in almost every child born in this generation. The fast growing technologies, the need to keep pace with the world, the amount of knowledge that exists for us to learn, explains the shrewdness of this generation. Though stereotyping, group-thinking and narrow mindedness still exists at certain levels, every individual, be it male or female, has become more independent, in their thinking, lifestyle, financially and emotionally too. It could be misread as self-centered behavior by some from the older generation. It is also misinterpreted as losing culture, tradition or values. Culture will transform along with civilization and what makes the generation unique is the way they come to accept it and make the best of it. In this regard, my generation is far more mature and level headed than the previous ones. I am reminded of something I read recently. It is about a little girl, whose grandmother tells her she will grow beautiful curly hair, but only if she eats the crust of the bread. The girl snaps back saying, that it is fine with her as she can use the curling iron like her mom does. I felt the pride in me when I read this, to be a part of this new generation, not just intelligent but smart enough to use it in the right way. We will make a mark for ourselves rather than live on past glory. We’ve got it; we flaunt it, and will still keep searching for more.
Home Sweet Home
Home is where the heart is. Apparently, my heart does dwell in my hometown. Hence my mind refrains from seeing the flaws in the city. I would say that this city I grew up in is the best place to live in, since it is all I have known. Chennai, almost notorious for its poor hygiene and pollution, does have an excuse of being a metropolitan city with a huge population over a vast area. But I should agree, this is the one thing about my hometown that I would change, if I am given a chance. The reason although obvious, anybody would want to live in a place that’s clean and safe, I believe that the best features of Chennai, say the history, culture, large beaches, temples, numerous places of interest would come into light only then. The beauty of the city is hidden behind the dirty surface. People do judge the book by its cover and the best solution is to make the cover attractive than singing praises about the book. A city is a city; I know it cannot be made a paradise overnight. Efforts are being made to keep it tidier. I think the challenge is to change the attitude of the people towards this rather than physically clean the place, over and over again. It is the interest of the inhabitants and their awareness levels in this issue that needs to be concentrated on, to reach a long term solution. For example, Bangalore is a city, although not as populated as Chennai, attracts a lot of attention because of its weather, roads, tidiness and definitely the attitude of the people towards these factors. Chennai is a bigger, better and remarkable place and can prove it to the world pretty soon, with these changes that it deserves to go through.
u think i ll get into google???
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Saturday, March 10, 2007
MAn! i feEl LikE a wOmaN !!
JUST A PASSING THOUGHT
whats this women's day for? Is it the women's way of openly declaring to their agreeing that 'its a man's world'? y isnt there a man's day? is it bcos we already celebrate APRIL 1 every yr?
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